Hello, i was doing so good not being depressed about Ronald and i not talking for 3 months, but now I been crying the last few days missing him. I loss so many people close to me to death like my - question #17937

young nephew was killed at 27 years old 4 years ago,his mother who is my childhood friend and sister in Law she died a year ago, loss my father 2 years ago, another female a few weeks ago and 2 of my favorite cousins 1 last year in December and the other one 3 years ago. A lot of loss for me in 4 years time. Im tired of crying and only surrounded by sadness and grief. My life is so different now and I feel alone now. I always had Ronald to put a smile on my face whenever I got sad he would be supportive of me. He was my only happy place that I have in my life, but now I feel like im grieving another death but its of our friendship, I feel like he abandoned me and never really loved me. Its so hard to move on completely but im going to have to figure out a way to do it.Can you tell me why he never respond to my text message and if he blocked me from contacting him?