I know I'm being delusional in thinking that my ex really loved me. Even now I'm mourning what we had because we were the best of friends before we started dating. Now we detest each other. Did he - question #5420
target me because he saw I was solitary and in my own? Until he realized that I had an inner strength and couldn't be controlled. Even though a STD showed up. I convinced myself that it was something residual left over from my previous relationship but the clinician assured me that even tho it was possible it's unlikely because I presented with symptoms and took meds and cleared it up and I didn't have sex for 5/6 months until I started dating my current ex 23 07 66 and two months into our relationship I showed symptoms again he more than likely gave it to me. In my mind I preferred this scenario instead of the cheating scenario. But I have to stop being in denial I guess. I've lost my friend now
Author's remarks from 24.09.25 16:25:32 So does that mean our friendship is over? And that he has no regrets and doesn't care? And right now I'm not particularly interested in anybody ATM. If I am it will only be something fleeting and not serious. Im seriously not mentally there ATM.
Author's remarks from 24.09.25 18:31:41 Thats a shame tbh. I know he's a text book narcissist. I didn't want to believe it because I have BPD, ADHD and display some narc traits too and can be very ignorant and even if it kills me I will take accountability when needs. I just wanted to love an d be loved and what annoys me he chased me. I was initially hesitant getting with him and now I know why.
I hear the pain in your words, and you’re not being delusional you truly loved, and that love was real on your side. From his energy, your ex seems to have acted carelessly and without the depth of honesty you gave. It feels like he was drawn to your openness at first, but when he couldn’t control you, the relationship fractured.Right now, yes, the friendship is over he isn’t showing genuine regret. This doesn’t mean you’ll never be loved deeply again. It means you’re being freed to heal, reclaim your strength, and protect your heart for someone who values you fully. For now, take the time you need. Love will come again, but your healing comes first.
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Don't worry ,your condition will return to normal soon. You need to see a psychologist and work through this situation. But all these men are not worthy of you. Ahead of you is a meeting with a worthy man who will not give you anything, but will make you a truly happy woman and will sincerely love you.
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You are deeply experiencing a breakup with loved ones. You are afraid of loneliness. But you need to let go of men who have harmed you more easily. After all, they are not worthy of you and this is unworthy behavior.
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He is looking for a partner who shares his values and strives for stability.
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