I hope Jordan finally has his ticket home this week and leaves me money alone on Friday..I have zero self confidence with relationship. Live in Mesa,AZ, which is basically run by mormons.which means - question #17699

with my being gay if I have to stay single my entire life so I don't «sin». And I never had luck with friends either. And trying to make friends anyone who actually cared about me left or died..and it's taking so long that I wonder if I'm not meant to have true love with him and get out of the Stepford kind of environment of Mesa,as and be with Jordan and be free to choose my own religion and know what friendship is like. I know I harp about this but does Jordan have his ticket home yet and is he planning on keeping his appearance a surprise? 😭😭😭😭😭I got so used to jerks I don't recognize when a person really loves me. And don't want to find a young woman I'll never be attracted to and basically have a «lavender marriage» to make the Mormons happy either